Saturday, October 25, 2008

Food for the Soul

chrysanthemum from the market


I drive to the market alone today, not being able to convince anyone else to come with me. "We don't want to go the fahmaw's mahwket" they protest. I snicker at their cute "New York" accents and wish I could preserve their sweet little voices in my head forever. Pretty soon they'll be grown up and pronouncing their r's perfectly....

I pull in next to an older woman loading her car. As I walk along my van and open the hatch, I notice her homemade bumper sticker, "Old white ladies for Obama." I laugh to myself and then tell her,
"I love your bumper sticker!"
"Thanks!" she says. "I'm insulted they'd think just because I'm a woman I'd vote for Sarah Palin."
We exchange a few more words about the election and then part ways. I pull the empty red wagon behind me.

Approaching the long line of white tents, I notice that the man playing guitar is someone I met last weekend, a former student of my good friend Deborah who has just moved away. His long brown hair is pulled into a ponytail and he wears a stocking cap and well-worn clothing. He is singing passionately as I walk by.

I walk all the way to the end like I always do to see what each farmer has. Today it's noticeably quieter and there are fewer booths--they are no longer overflowing with the summer bounty. Now there are pumpkins, turnips, greens, onions, a few peppers and tomatoes and squash. The maroon and golden yellow mums lined up along the ground catch my eye but I keep going. I'm on a mission today to stock up on winter squash and items for my annual chili party (this must be the 13th year of it by now).

An African drumbeat fills my ears as I near the end of the row, and behind the women dancing in African costumes, I see a drummer who looks a lot like my pottery teacher. I make a mental note to stop back and talk to him, as I've been thinking of taking an African drumming class that I've been signs for around town. It's been 16 years since I've done any drumming but I've felt a real need to do it again lately. My dreams are often about music or I wake up with songs in my head and maybe this means I need more music in my life. The cold air gets to me, so I leave a tip and continue my shopping.

I bump into my friend Alexis, and barely recognize her in her layers of fall clothing and big sunglasses. We hug and catch up on each other's lives. I tell her about the chili party as she starts to leave, and a farmer at a nearby booth tells her that real Texas chili doesn't include beans. It was traditionally just peppers, onions, meat and spices. I stop by his booth and buy the rest of his peppers. He tells me he's sorry he's out of a certain kind of pepper that looks like a habenero but it's sweet. "It would be perfect in your chili," he says, but "this is the last week of peppers." A little twinge of sadness washes over me as I think about those long winter months without my weekly farmer's market fix.

Beef is next on my list so I stop by Missouri Legacy beef. The woman and I converse about various buying options and we talk about where I can find her meat during the winter months. I'm glad to hear I won't have to go to the grocery store to find it--it will be at Clover's Natural Foods store, a small market with friendly employees.

The young man working at Uprise Bread notices my empty wagon and says, "Where are the kids?" I tell him they didn't want to come but I also needed the room in the wagon for all of my goodies. On to Goatsbeard Farm to buy a pound of soft goat cheese... Ken jokingly asks, "How much do I charge you for this anyway?" We're regular customers and my husband helped out at their booth while they were in Iowa adopting their baby.

I make an impulse decision to buy some of those mums, even though I plant them every year and they never do well. They will look pretty at the party. My friend Stacy's mother-in-law hollers at me, "What beautiful mums, Amy!" And lucky me, she tells me how I can help them survive the winter. I convince myself that these will do well because they are locally grown, unlike the ones I bought at Home Depot last year. I cross over to Phil's Garden--he has winter squash so I fill my bag with pumpkins, acorn squash and butternut squash. "Thanks, Amy" says Patt, Phil's wife. I pass by her son's rack of nature photo greeting cards as I head to the car to unload.

With a lighter load, I wander back down past the booths to get some things I've forgotten. At the Share Life booth, I grab as many onions as I can hold in my arms and carefully place them on the scale. The kind old man looks into my eyes as he gently places the onions in my bag and gives me a sincere "thank you."

My pottery teacher Karsten is sitting at his drum alone so I walk up to him. "You're a man of many talents!" I exclaim. He holds up his hands, implying that being a potter lends itself well to other things.

Finally, even though I've tried to stay as long as I can, I am done. I have all I need.

I put a couple dollars in the guitarist's case as I walk out.

In one hour, I have talked with a more than a dozen people and have looked into the eyes and touched the hands of the people who grew or made my food.

I don't get this at the grocery store. There is no comparison.

The Farmer's Market is more than food for my family.

It is food for the soul.


Friday, October 24, 2008

Soul Communication


Our soul speaks to us in symbols--in our waking and dreaming life. It isn't always easy to know what those symbols mean, or to even know we are supposed to be looking for them. I used to think that our life was already mapped out and we were sort of helpless passengers on our journey. I now believe we make some general agreements before we come to this lifetime about the lessons we will learn and the people we will meet. How we will learn those lessons and find those people is a result of our free will and how well we interpret the symbols our soul is giving us.

I had a powerful dream two night ago. I don't know exactly what it meant but I was affected by the beauty of it all day. In my dream, I discovered this gigantic pomegranate tree, with the characteristic shape of a pear tree but much larger. The bark was white like a Sycamore. The leaves were almost gone, but those that remained were yellow and yellow-green. On the lower branches of the tree and on the were tons of pomegranates. It was set against a gorgeous light blue Fall sky.

I was thrilled to discover this tree and the house next to it, which was ours but we had forgotten about it. I went to find my mom, who wasn't really my mom (you know how that goes in dreams) and as we were looking out the window at this majestic tree, a song started playing--a melancholic alternative sounding song about a Pomegranate. Does anyone else hear songs in their dreams they've never heard before? If I had musical talent, I could actually do something with them!

Anyway, maybe that dream had a simple meaning--that I should eat some pomegranates, but maybe there was something more. I'm going to keep working on it. I did enjoy creating this pieces of art in response to the dream. My picture of the tree isn't quite what I saw in my head but that's how it goes.

I can think of some examples in my waking life of powerful symbols that I missed. I was very, very sick in college for about six months. I was hospitalized for strep throat, 2 weeks later I got pneumonia, two months later my appendix nearly burst. During this time, I was dating a guy that was CLEARLY not for me, but I was ignoring the obvious signs so my soul stepped things up a bit with the illness and said, "Hey lady, listen to me! Get out already!"

My dreams are always so vivid; I often remember them for years. Sometimes they are predictions of things I eventually see or people I will meet. I had a dream a couple of months ago that I was walking in this scary cellar/basement type place and was seeing ghosts or something creepy. I was trying to stay calm and this voice said to me "A thousand rays of love" and this light shot from my chest and I wasn't scared anymore. I woke up and wrote that one down because it sounded like the title of something. I looked it up but didn't find anything.

Imagine my surprise when I was the Festival of Arts last month and I saw this picture by local artist David Spear! I stood there in shock. In the picture is a guy with light shooting out of his chest! That was weird. I wrote to the artist and told him my story and asked him how he found the inspiration. It was from a Picasso quote that made no sense to me, but still very cool all the same.

Dreams are the ultimate form of soul communication and I definitely would love to spend more time figuring out what mine mean!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Ride the Obama wave....

I love this photo! I don't know if it's real but it's beautiful. I think Barack Obama is an amazing person and I can't wait for him to be our next president (if he doesn't win, we're moving to France!).

I just read a lovely interview with Barack's sister yesterday. Makes me like him even more!

The Fall color I was looking for...






I got a tip from a photographer to use the vivid setting on my camera and it's made a huge difference, capturing things the way I see them! And lucky me, we woke up yesterday and our maple tree was like "lava" according to Kai! Lovely.... Now it really feels like fall!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Five (oops!) Four Years Later




The passage of time is easy to see when we look at our children. Here's Kai at 18 months and in almost the same spot in our yard 4 years later, still wearing red and still wearing boots. Even though he's grown, some things about him have not changed.... (Thanks to Jevon for catching my error. I was making time pass by a little too quickly--math was never my strong suit!)

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Images of Fall







Oh, how I love fall. And the colors haven't really exploded yet--you've got to love those long drawn out Missouri seasons. There's just something about the quiet, the crisp blue skies and wispy clouds, the lack of bugs, the wind, and I could go on. The first picture is of the rain through the windshield by my friend Jenny's house. The second is by the St. Louis Arch--it reminded me of France. Then a picture of the stunning beans we found inside the scarlet runner bean pods. I had no idea that beans were such a brilliant color before they dried! The fourth is also at the Arch; how strange to see flower blossoms in the fall. Next we have some trees reflected on my newly washed deck and finally a cool mossy tree in St. Louis. After living in a dry, dry desert for over 4 years, I can't get enough green!

We are eying a gigantic empty for-sale-by-owner lot in town that backs up to an even larger green space that is owned by the neighborhood association. We could build our eco-friendly home there and I could have my herb garden and Jevon can grow the fruits and veggies (hey, I can't do it all!). And best of all, we would be in a real neighborhood (the kind where people sit on porches, go for walks, and really interact) and within walking and biking distance of two parks, horse stables, a health food store, and downtown. I think Jevon could even safely drive a moped to work. Did I mention it's next door to Access Arts? Kai and I (and eventually Tea and maybe Jevon) could walk to our art classes! I'll keep you posted.

Monday, October 20, 2008

"Hey Mom, take a picture of this!"


Life through the eyes of a child is such a gift. Kai was washing apples this morning and yelled at me that I needed to take a picture. (Tea woke up and saw a moth outside and wanted me to take a picture of that--I guess they see me taking a lot of pictures). Anyway, what a great shot! The most exciting part is that I am finally figuring out how to use the manual settings on my camera and this is especially helpful when I'm taking shots indoors and don't want the flash to go off.
Tea's clothes didn't stay dry for long.... I love the shot with just her arm and the apple in the faucet. There's probably something artistically wrong with a photo with just an arm, but to my amateur photographic eye, it looks cool.

I don't know if I can ever move back to South Dakota after living here. The growing season is almost six months long and the amount and types of food you can grow here is amazing. The Farmer's Market is a feast for the eyes! We've been picking hickory nuts from our backyard, black walnuts from the park, and I've been drying lemon balm and making lemon balm, echinacea, and thyme tinctures in addition to the apple juice and apple pies we made today. We went to a Chestnut Festival last weekend where there were local trees and plants, pecans, chestnuts, black walnuts, elderberry concentrates, goat cheese and wine and beer. We brought home 3 pounds of pecans, some blackberry wine and muscati wine, and elderberry extract. We're going apple picking at a place about a mile away on Thursday and I'm picking up 50 pounds of locally grown sweet and white potatoes as well as a turkey from a friend tomorrow. Ah, I just love this place and I love the feeling of knowing I have a bounty of locally grown food in my cellar and freezer for the winter. It's just too depressing to shop at Hy-Vee and eat that lackluster produce in the winter!